Jagat

Here it is, Radhe, your birthday. And here am I--infinity + 10,000 miles away from you and your kund. Since last night, I have been looking around in different books, trying to find something to say, something that took me out of theory and into the real world of your devotion and love. But my heart is so dry that none of the things I read, nectar though they were, seemed able to quench its thirst. Finally, this morning I turned to Ananta Das's Vilapa-kusumanjali , which opened spontaneously on verse 96-- तवैवास्मि तवैवास्मि न जीवामि त्वया विना । इति विज्ञाय राधे त्वं नय मां चरणान्तिके ॥ tavaivaasmi tavaivaasmi na jiivaami tvayaa vinaa । iti vijnaaya raadhe tvam naya maam charanaantike ॥ Oh Radhe ! I am yours alone. I am yours alone. I cannot live without you. You know this full well, Oh Radhe, so give me a place at your lotus feet. This verse is the heart and soul of the Vilapa-kusumanjali . It is as if all the meditations on Radha's lila and the heartfelt prayers for service ...