Tomorrow is Guru Purnima. So you should meditate on ALL your gurus. From the earliest... parents... to all the rest, teachers, priests, diksha gurus, shiksha gurus, books....
And then progress from the outside inside. Think of your intelligence as a guru, as the Lord within your heart. And try to capture the great epiphanies you have had, the times when the lights went on.
And now merge the external with the internal. Observe how your very own story -- even in suffering --, the story of your evolution towards perfection in love, is being guided by the sweet hands of the Lord's grace. And focus on the source of that feeling.
Swami Veda wrote as part of his meditation for today:
The guru tradition is a universal in all ancient cultures... Seeking a guru, therefore, is an innate part of our nature; part of our spiritual urges. Many resist this urge out of ego. They think ‘I can make it on my own’ and sooner or later they stumble or become disappointed or confused as to their path.
A guru may appear in an embodied form or in a disembodied form, for a guru is one who infuses into our individuated consciousness the divine consciousness. Consciousness has no form. Our Gurudeva continues to guide thousands from his bodiless state. The body-bound do not understand this.
The contact with the bodiless guru is to be established through guru-chakra, but an embodied guru is needed to initiate us into that chakra. So let us not allow our ego to be an obstacle on this path.
Many who have been guided by the guru are tempted to declare themselves as gurus several incarnations prematurely. It takes one, yes, many incarnations to reach the status of a guru who can lead aqualified disciple to the highest divine consciousness. On the other hand, our Gurudeva Swami Rama said, “a guru can transmit his entire knowledge to a qualified disciple in one night of silence”.
Let us just gather the qualifications of purity required and wash our minds of heterogeneous vrittis, replacing them with a continuous calm flow of single vritti of atman-awareness. Our task ends at gaining the qualification and the guru will take care of the rest.